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ifailtherfore @ 2004-12-14T20:16:00

2004-12-15T01:18:42Z

Kristin has been making my life rock every single day so far. She's helped me out in sooooooo many different ways it's crazy. If you guys know her thank her for being great to me!!!

SHe's the most amazing thing ever....

ifailtherfore @ 2004-12-07T18:12:00

2004-12-07T23:19:03Z

okay, so today at work sucks ass..this stupid bastard calls in and hes like why is my deposit amount only 130..something who the fuck cares....I'm like well it's credited to your account...because it was an amount due that you had not paid...he freaks all this stupid bullshit happens and I'm totally frustrated at stupid people. PAY YOUR BILLS AND STAY ON TOP OF THINGS PLEASE!!!!! If you have a cell phone especially.

So I'm special I guess. I have an amazing girl in mind right now and I don't feel like disclosing my personal information but she's something else. She totally changed the way I feel about people and stuff in a good way. She's really nice and I've heard we look cute when we hang out together...mmm.

Adios.

GOOD TIMES

2004-12-02T21:48:53Z

Rolling out with my friend kristen to I-bar tonight....she's so badass...Getting mad ass hours at work like 40...a week....Rocking a new cell phone....thinking about new cars.....and always happy to hear from jessica stephens and jenny nelson...ohhh, my two guardian angels....sweetess girls ever....Top three right there....oh yea...and trisha is okay too...I mean, alright...april you are a fothermucker...haha.

DOts.
DIP
DOTS>.

reminds me of icecream...

ADios.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-11-20T14:56:00

2004-11-20T20:01:43Z

Writting down songs and making keyboards...
We need to start hanging out more often, I'm serious sometimes it's nice to see each other every once and a while instead of chatting over the stupid phone, or even online...what is happening to our social skills and public awareness of current events....besides gossip..and he said she said bullshit. I long for the days when I could call a friend ask him what he was doing and see if he wanted to hangout and not have him give me a lame reason he could hangout because of myspace POOSE. Get off your asses and start hanging out with your friends lame-o's. Get off the computer go for a walk do something positive with your lives. READ A FREAKING BOOK. do something else. I MISS YOU JENNY!!! I love all you guys out there reading these...but come on wouldn't you rather see my beautiful face in person?

<3

ANOMIE

2004-11-18T23:11:23Z

So the band finally has a space on....ready for it....
MYSPACE. But no audio clips yet, we want a solid recording...before that..and we need people to be our friends so check us out.. Anomie
And keep in touch.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-11-16T18:15:00

2004-11-16T23:22:27Z

I've gone to crush last night, wow good music but stupid people. Needs to bring a bigger crowd, nice touch to have free beer though. ALright so I'm seeing some people I used to hangout with at Ibar and other place, it's awesome. Hi brandy, Ryan, and all you other guys that always read the stuff I post. I'm doing alright me and james are hanging in there and I guess things are become normal. Finally. Still looking to find something...as to what...I don't know.

So for all you girls and guys trying to get a hold of me, keep trying because I'm still here and tomorrow is my day off, holla!!!!!

haha

ifailtherfore @ 2004-11-05T15:19:00

2004-11-05T20:27:22Z

Okay, I lied. There are four girls. One I hang out with daily, One I hangout with sometimes, and two I never have hung out with.

GIRL 1- SO rad, she knows who she is, she dances with me all the time at IBAR and she lets me watch movies at her house without making me feel stupid, even when I sleep around you.

Girl 2-A saint, she would give me her right arm if she felt it would help me out, I totally feel so comfortable around you. ANd we've fallen asleep together. MY guitar-O angellic.

Girl 3- Yea, you live in germany and you will never see me till I'm older and have more money. But I have your notes and letters to me, which I adore. And you called me sven.

Girl 4- And finally you. You are way too young for me, but I have hope in my heart one day you will grow up and be an awesome women, you're extremely pretty funny, and intelligent. YEa, I crush on you often and when I am famous I'll be taking you with me on tour if your parents will let you come with me. We've never hung out. But I've talked to you once, and I've been in touch through hundreds of e-mails. Hang in there, your really something special.

Each of you can guess which one you are, and talk to me about this if you'd like, it's all good.
I sincerely (BIG L WORD) each and every one of you.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-11-05T15:10:00

2004-11-05T20:13:04Z

work, work, after work Mellow Mushroom, then kristins if she isn't asleep. I'm hanging out with the two girls that make my life better. Finally I've met the right person, but it seems it's split into two different girls..haha, go figure. IT's okay, relationships are way over-rated. Both girls are saints. OR big sinners, whichever way you wanna look at it. I like both views actually.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-10-29T15:35:00

2004-10-29T19:38:19Z

almost the Big H day. SO I'm staying home Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Maybe a chance of me going out on Saturday night and sunday night but I don't know if I'm up to it. But if I go out and you don't show up your so lame. LAME man! I saw arthur at I-BAr last night it was really nice seeing him because I missed hanging out with that nutty kid. He was making out with a cute girl too. Lucky dog. I was dancing all over kristen and beth and brian. But ::sigh:: no one even came over to say hi to me. I went back to kristens and hung out with her for a while till I bout passed out. THis morning got here fast and it was crazy. I was up so early for the big test at work. I feel like such a dork. I'm frustrated that no one out there is remotely interested in what I do or say. I've even tried drastic action but nothing man, I gotta pull something outta my hat. I can't wait to meet someone who can remotely interest me. Well, I mean I have met girls that do this it's just I don't think they are too interested. SO let me rephrase that...Remotely interesting and interested in me back. till better times.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-10-26T15:56:00

2004-10-26T19:57:57Z

so bored with everything except the new sampler I have thanks to brian esser, the best kid ever. YIP YIP sucka. ALright My props go out to JEN JEN you know I miss you kidddddd, and to my good friend Kristin you've been rocking my Ibar experience from day 2. And LAter guys, see you at The I bar every thursday and friday.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-10-20T14:48:00

2004-10-20T18:52:23Z

Happy birthday to me.
Happy birthday to me.
Happy birthday dear me.
happy birthday to me.
and nevermore.

alright so today is the day I was born and it's supposed to be so great and all this other junk. but it's really not all that great. I mean if I did something important then maybe I might count for something. But it's all good and I might actually have fun tonight depending on what happens. So lets see what is going to happen now...Oh and thank you for the people who actually called me and said happy birthday, it was really nice of you to wake me up at 10:00 AM and say that. On a serious note I really do love you guys that did that. You make my life a lot better then it is. Thanks.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-10-18T15:05:00

2004-10-18T19:07:57Z

Okay, so I got T-minus 2 days and counting for my birthday of doom. So If anyone is listening to these stupid posts. Send me a birthday card with a dollar. Or maybe instead send me a happy birthday email or something. Or HAngout with me.

IT's kinda lonely at the top.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-10-15T15:17:00

2004-10-15T19:23:57Z

Alright negative 5 days and counting till the big day. Lastnight I went to I-bar, and man oh man, oh man oh man. It was crazy, me and james had a good time. I danced my fanny off and of course I saw every single person I ever went to highschool with! So rad I saw soooo many kids: my best friend brian, Celina the dreamer (girl I crushed on in highschool), My old ass friend kristin who reminded me of being 16, my totally hot friend vanessa who was tipsy when I got there, my other friend sam, chris smith a badass skateboarder, and the list goes on and on and on. It was by far a great night that has been looooooooooooooooooooooong needed. ALright my birthday is next wensday so if you want to stop by or something at least send me a message, or voice mail or something. Oh and if you saw me at I-BAR and you wanna dance sometime haha.....you get the point.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-10-05T15:42:00

2004-10-05T19:43:17Z

Negative 15 days and counting.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-09-24T00:37:00

2004-09-24T04:37:55Z

My hives are healing slowly, things are getting better.
I might get evicted out of my apartment with james and my ma. That's fun right? no?..damn.
I'm over jess, which is good. I'm just sad that things are ended this stupid. She's learning for the best though and I know one day she will be a better person because of all the bullshit she is going to deal with. God bless that girl, she is going to meet some horrible people. And So the story of glen continues, and I'm struggling to squeeze by yet, again. This time I've cut close, but I've managed to get a new job, turn my band around, and over come death. I think I might be able to do this. The sad thing is the next time I write might not be for a while because of me losing my roadrunner and cable deal thing, no money sucks. I am looking into getting a flat or studio in downtown sanford historic area. If anyone is interested in being artistic with me and james let me know. We want to move into a studio and fix it up so we can have band practice there as well as cool parties. I'd prefer a girl that's tough, but I can deal with another dude. Just someone who can hold a job and enjoy noise and art because it's going to be insane. I am going to be happy damn it. And I want someone to join my family, because once you join into my house hold I treat you like family, I've taken care of james when times are tough and he's done the same for me. I need help guys, I'm not very good at keeping house but I'm not a slob.

~As for the girlfriend thing, FUCK THAT.
I have girls, that are awesome friends, and I'd rather be without anyone then have a jerk again. But If your still interested, I guess send me a letter in the mail or an email or call me or get in touch some how. I'm just about going on a date here or there, making out, and that's it. I'm done with sex and I'm done with anything sexual. So my count down till I meet "Her". The one to change my heart for the better, and the one who has eyes for no one else. She doesn't laugh at others but she always sees how to make things better, and is willing to give everything up just to try and make me smile. someone who can make my heart feel like organ instead of brick.~

I'm in love with you, you make me feel so different about everything
I'm always happy to hear, see, or be with you.
I'm not calling anymore I'm too scared of what might happen if I were to let on about these feelings. I know you could never be in love with someone like this, so poor and weak. I just ask for your friendship, but I long for so much more. I could stare all night and just be amazed with the stupid face on my oversized head. I'm so lucky to find someone like you and I know your just being sweet and nice, not affected like my heart for you. It's okay I say again, But maybe one day you'll fall in love with something I do, and I can make you feel so stupid but so amazingly good at the same time. It's unfair to say all this, yea...but I need to put this out there. I'm not asking for marriage, dates, or courtships. I guess I just want to hold hands sometime, or even cuddle once, or maybe help you up and say nice things to your face. I'm so scared dammit I've got no spine I'm weak. I want to say these things in person, but I'm so broken I think the worst would happen. Laughing at me, my eyes water, and I leave more broken then dishes on the wall and floor. I'd do anything for you. And the sad thing is you don't even know. Maybe you'll read it one day and make it all connect, and I know you will. So fucking amazing, I don't have any word that can accurately describe how much of a difference you bring to my life or how much your affectionate personality has touched my somber heart.
Some last words....Be soft and gentle if you figure this out. Don't be angry at me. I'm sorry if I make you feel weird or stupid, I just want to tell you so bad I could scream my heart out of my mouth. and Breath you in all at once.
I...l...you
more then you'll ever understand with all my soul.

Now everyone knows that I like someone. Good. I'm not a robot without a heart.
But I'm not right yet. I'm all sorts of fucked up. Cutting is bad, never cut yourself.

I tried to drown myself one night, but I felt so stupid afterwards all I did was throw up. I know it was lame. I'm not going to ever do it again. I don't want to hurt you guys or anyone else. That's the worst thing anyone can do to hurt everyone. It's the ultimate anti Glen. I apologize with all my heart.

To better times and happy faces of friends I hold dear,
Glen Welchs

ifailtherfore @ 2004-09-20T21:39:00

2004-09-21T01:43:57Z

came looking for trouble tonight. driving by all slow and looking for trouble. You would believe anything told to your lame ass. I wish god had blessed you with more brain cells but I guess "rock" would still not improve your dwindling IQ. Way to go jock jams. Haha, oh and next time some girl says anything to you it's a lie you big dummy, a twisted lie.
Nice lacky jess, I see you're still shooting for dumb.
Good thing I'm smarter now. Thanks for the enlightening.

Glen

ifailtherfore @ 2004-09-17T04:17:00

2004-09-17T08:17:40Z

I've got hives from stress.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-09-16T13:50:00

2004-09-16T17:50:21Z

okay so what the hell is the matter with me? Today in addition to my fingers, toes, back, and eyes, My calves have now started hurting it's so shitty because when I stand up it kills my legs. Please if you know what is wrong with me let me know. Oh and my nipples itch really bad sometimes. I dunno why I am posting this I guess I'm just scared and at a later time I might delete this. Last night was the talk to ray and it went well, I am not saying anything more about it because I am done with the problems at hand. I am going to start writing about other things from now on unless crazy shit happens, which I'm sure they will.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-09-14T21:01:00

2004-09-15T01:02:15Z

Ray your never going to be trusted by me but know this, if you want to talk face to face, come over saturday. I swear I won't try anything, and by the way I'm not lying about it.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-09-14T00:59:00

2004-09-14T05:03:15Z

new job was good today, I want to kill... met some interesting people. It's funny when you start a new job and you're all nervous. I hate everything. But then I guess it wouldn't be new eh? And It would be a photocopy of yester day. I want to cut into my eye with glass. Well tomorrow is another day of pain. Working out will be good. I'm a fat fuck that is ugly so I might as well get in shape. and grow a beard with spikes and I hope frogs fall out of her mouth.
alright I'm not drunking anymore.

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ifailtherfore @ 2004-09-12T01:38:00

2004-09-12T05:38:41Z

Yea, I caught ray kissing Jess, I filpped and punched him and tore pictures of me off her wall. I was going bac k to finish the job jess stood in the way and I pushed her to the ground. I suppose I do deserve this. If I see both of them anytime soon I'll flip. SO if you know ray, warn him to stay away. Tell him to watch his back and to pray james sleeps with an eye open.
This is the monster that I am.

ifailtherfore @ 2004-09-06T19:35:00

2004-09-06T23:35:31Z

I have power.

:)